ashamed II

not having enough time or will power or both to have contact with the person very important for me makes me sad and dumb. moron me i think and turn back to think that i am not able to life how i want and that i am too absorbed by time-eating habits and circeling around myself-thinkings.. well. my thesis needs to be finished. then i can go on being a self-content moron. until then my nerves wil be a bit worn and my heart a bit cooler then usual and my mind scattered and not even able to be a wholy moron anymore..